We hope for a cultural, for a spiritual awakening amongst the Coloured race, the mulatto. They devote themselves not to the pursuit of family life but to the speculations of pleasure, the consequences of pleasure. Youth is not wasted on them, youth is lost.
In adulthood, they no longer dream because they have already found their place in the world, as failures who have found the exit out in their own troubled lives, through violence, addiction and alcoholism. There is nothing authentic about their lives. No sincerity or originality. They do not understand aesthetics. The sophistication of the high art of culture. Religion to them though is not a myth. They believe in order to live lives of disorder, to create mayhem they must confess in a church. They think nothing of the spiritual in art, for it is a wasteland to them. There is no map, no atlas for them illustrated in the world around them. They have no worldly wisdom and cannot attain it. Complexity is the name of the game. The world around them is complex but because they are simple creatures, their lives are at the cornerstone of simplicity, even their faith in God or the god that they worship it is a faith of simplicity. That there is a heaven and a hell. They virtually have retained no verbal pleasure. The source of their pleasure is often found in the weakness in others and their minds are not curious. Which leaves us to beg the question. Are they intelligent? Are they curious about the world around them? Do they have an identity? An ego? What has history shown us about the mulatto who finds themselves around the world?
They are for the most part comprehensively displaced and if we take an intriguing look at the hierarchy and family structure of mulatto this is what we will discover. A memoir of alcoholism. Lost in translation is a legend of men who drank themselves to death. When you examine the life of the female alcoholic you will find that she will often tend to be emotional, hysterical, engage in violent behaviour herself, dress and behave provocatively, behave sexually inappropriately in front of small children even. She will be abused powerfully and in return she will abuse any one and every one in her path. This is the system of alcoholism. It diminishes the forces of your intuition and your common sense, it inspires nothing, it is graphic, it is a voyage into darkness, suffering, sadness, depression, midnight and the early hours of the morning. In this climate, children will grow amongst these customs, belief systems, values and norms. They will learn to believe that this is the custom in all homes which it is not. They will come to learn and believe that this is acceptable behaviour which it is not. Unfortunately, this season in their life will not pass. They will either begin to drink themselves as early as adolescence. They will begin to smoke too.
That phallic symbol of all phallic symbols and perhaps engage in sexual behaviour too. Children who grow up with alcoholic parents (an alcoholic mother who is absent, violent, mentally, emotionally, physically abusive, there will be abandonment, there will be paths to torturous thinking, sexual maladjusted behaviour, they will to experiment with pornography. If at an early stage of the development the child in their formative years viewed shades of soft of hard-core pornography then sexuality for them will always be a pilgrimage into a play on violence, artificial lovemaking. Children that are born from these ‘Christian’ reproductions and I wonder will come of these mulattos. Proof of pornographic material, it will give them ‘archived’ instructions, stylised techniques if you will to be violent towards their partner in the physical act of the sexual transaction. There will be nothing charming about it.
To a certain kind of man the alcoholic woman will be an attractive woman. Women have always been appealing to men. That is a scientific fact because men are sexual creatures, curious by nature of the female for sex. Men are physical. Men play the dominant role in the human species. If they find a woman sexually appealing they will ‘take her’ or ‘take care of her’ or simply put take her to bed. It is in the physiology, biology, psychology of man.
For the mother who is the alcoholic, her adolescent children will rebel against her, her adult daughters will not forgive her for abandoning them, her adult sons will worship her. There will be scenes from childhood of an alcoholic mother the morning after, the mother captured sleeping it off, commenting on the father’s sexual inadequacies in the bedroom with other aunts or friends, defining her, the daughter’s childhood and for that the adult daughter will never forgive her mother.
For the neglect, for her own mother’s ignorance, for the fact that she is not educated but that the daughter is educated but that the daughter was never loved. If a mother loves her daughter, is not neglectful of her daughter then her daughter will grow up will self-worth and appreciate that her body to all intents and purposes is a temple. That there is something holy about it. Daughters and sons who have mothers who are alcoholics will always struggle with the word intimacy. Young adults will always explore intimacy. The young girl is sensuous in all of her youthful beauty. The young boy when he interacts with her all he sees is the physical. The young girl’s physical beauty. The first love-affair is always the most intense. Its life is a long, beautiful memory but sometimes also a painful meeting place. But nobody thinks about the children. Nobody thinks about the mulatto as a child. Nobody thinks about how having psychopathic adults for parents, how the mulatto’s own childhood will be affected. There is a kind of bizarre dementia of having an alcoholic as a mother or the father drinking himself into a stupor every night. Here, in this world children are possessed and ruled by a hallucinatory Technicolor world and how do they survive? They will use their sexuality.
The young girl and boy will have multiple partners.The young girl will usually fall pregnant. The father of the child will not usurp his responsibility. Sex is a profound act for the young girl. For the young boy it is a physical act and after the act, his climax, he does not have any more intentions towards the girl in any way, especially if there is a baby on the way afterwards.
Will the mulatto ever develop, build him or herself up to be to be that teacher, that pharmacist, that lawyer, and that doctor, that educated and spiritual mentor and that role model? I say this with intensity. No. Not even under extreme circumstances? No, not even under extreme circumstances.
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